I know it has been a while since I last wrote. I am writing today because I was informed this morning that a client’s pet died. I keep looking at my cat, not even a year old yet, and wondering at her, cherishing her, holding her a little closer. My client’s dog was old, half toothless, blind in one eye…my client’s family recused him. He was roughly treated in his younger years and my client’s family made his last few years as comfortable as they could for him. It’s a sad day for them. I ponder the impact of unconditional love on us given to us by our pets. I know a while ago, a couple of years at least, my therapist tried to get my then landlord to allow me a cat as a support animal. I also know how much richer and better my life has been since I picked out Piper from her litter mates. How much I’ve changed for the better just knowing that her warm little body and her ready purrs wait for me when I get home. Piper was with me when I was in a house fire 8 almost 9 weeks ago. She adjusted surprisingly well to the sudden upheaval, waking up in the middle of the night, being shoved into her cat carrier, being locked in an unfamiliar bathroom all night, the two (or was it three?) and a half weeks we spent at my Aunt’s, and then moving into a brand new apartment. I still remember the way she used to curl up in the rug in front of my tv and wonder whether she remembers too.
Piper is my first cat that is all mine. Growing up we had cats but they were family cats. They belonged to all of us. Piper is mine. She knows me and I know her. It was hard for me when we were at my Aunt’s, to listen to my Uncle get testy over what she is and isn’t allowed to do. I get it. Their house, their rules. But she is so much a part of me it felt like a criticism of me. I didn’t hate her for her natural behaviors and her personality, in fact while I was scared that we would be kicked out, I was also defensive of her. I was angry at my Uncle. This, getting defensive and taking care of my inner child, is something my therapist has tried to get me to do for my inner child practically since I started seeing her. So in a way my cat embodies that inner child part, the vulnerable dependent part, and I am reminded constantly to take care of it, treat it with kindness, play with it, love it, honor it, and cherish it.